Yes, But…becomes Yes, And

When I first moved to New York City, I had just left behind a ‘life’ in Sarasota, Florida. That ‘life’ consisted of a job, a house, friends, my dogs, and my soon-to-be ex-husband. I came to NYC to be a camp director, after school program coordinator and family programs manager but most importantly, to move […]

We Finally Meet

I was profoundly disappointed that we didn’t meet that first time. Grateful that my brother had still gone and was able to ask lots of questions and enjoy their company. I was so glad he was willing. I trust him to understand, at least a little, my feelings in wanting this information. So we rescheduled. […]

My ADHD is a Learning Experience

Since my official diagnosis I have had so many emotions and heartache to figure out. I have listened to podcasts, watched Youtube video’s and joined a variety of groups on Facebook. I started a Facebook group. They all have helped me feel normal. They understand what I am going through, the science behind why my […]

So Much to Add

There is so much to add today. We are about 10 weeks into self isolation during a pandemic. The kids haven’t been in school since March 13 and I have been overwhelmed emotionally and that becomes physically. In the first week of the pandemic, my aunt of only a few years, reached out to check […]

Interesting and All but…

So I spend a lot of time thinking about this new family. About how my Dad has no interest in any of this. Why? I also realize that I still try to get him to pay attention to me. It’s in different ways now. When I was a kid, I thought that maybe if I […]

Let’s Meet

So I know who my biological Grandma is. Her family seems kind and they loved her and miss her very much. Her death is still on their minds because they are adjusting to life without her, it hadn’t been a year when I came into their lives. One of my aunts said something to the […]

So, tell me more, about me.

The reason Kay was illusive was that she talked to Rena Mae’s husband, Joe Edmonds, about us. She wasn’t sure if he knew about my Dad and since she knew, she didn’t want to tell us anything without his permission. I was so grateful for that. She told us she had always been curious about […]

My New Identity

So now that I have all of this information, I have created yet another place where I don’t know where I belong. I have always felt like I am an outsider, even in my own body. I look in the mirror and see something very different than what I think I look like. I’m not […]

Hi, I’m Sarah and you are my family.

Now what?! I am an introvert. I want to meet these people! I am terrified. They didn’t know about me, will they be mean? The first step, have a phone conversation. I am also allergic to those! But, I really wanted to speak to someone. So I picked up the phone and called Joe, Rena […]

R For Roz, Rita and now Rena

Back to the story about my DNA. We waited for a few more days after receiving the picture. But really in the grand scheme of things, what was a few more days? After all, I waited this long to take the test. The passing of time was so hard. It was all I could think […]